| Wishlist for My 24th. |
[Dec. 24th, 2010|03:16 pm] |
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1. Guitar
2. DSLR
3. ipad
I don't think any will be fulfilled. |
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| Probable shift. |
[Nov. 23rd, 2010|06:27 pm] |
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Maybe moving virtually. |
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| Sighs. |
[Nov. 8th, 2010|03:53 pm] |
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Stressed max. :( |
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| Guilty As Charged. |
[Nov. 7th, 2010|04:16 am] |
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Some things just seem to be recurring. And I guess guilty pleasures are always present, it's just whether we can resist them or not. Ahhhhh. Lord, help me to resist them no matter how enticing they may be. |
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| Frustration. |
[Nov. 6th, 2010|02:24 am] |
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Honestly, I have no idea what is going on. Some expect me to know, but I really have no idea. Yes, they are supposedly my good friends, but they dont wanna tell me anything and I cant freaking do anything about it! WA LAO EHH. It's really frustrating when you really wanna help, but you cant. Cos freaking no one wants to breathe a word. Sometimes I wonder why I ever care. Why would I even bother? I'm already so stressed on my own, why should I even give a damn? Just cos I love my fellow brethren, just cos of the love of God who first loved us who are unworthy of His great love. I wanna help, but I cant. I feel left out, I feel ostracised. Everyone knows except me. Okay, I dont mean to complain, but I'm frustrated myself. And now others even come and complain to me about the happenings, which I'm clueless about. Dont ask me, cos I dont know. And I think I'll never know. So yups. Look for the specific and respective people yourselves.
Let me repeat, I dont know. I DONT KNOW. You hear me?! |
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| <3 Car Rides. |
[Nov. 4th, 2010|10:53 pm] |
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I always feel so blessed when i get car rides/lifts home, especially if it's from lovely people. <3 And I just feel uber blessed again. Hehehe. :)
Total blessedness in the midst of neverending deadlines. Thank You Lord. :) |
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| Random Post. |
[Nov. 3rd, 2010|12:40 pm] |
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This is going to be a random and disorganised post as i have stated in the title. Hahaha.
Exclusivity versus outsider. Some things seem to be getting increasely screwed, but dont ask me what, cos I am clueless too.
Got to nua for the whole of yesterday due to having no lessons. Not that I've no work to do, I just havent done them yet. SIGHS. This is neverending. NEVERENDINGGGGGGG WORKLOADDDDDDDDDD. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
And thus, I've so many things to do today. Woots. Me is uber screwed. And i'm really hungry. :(
Dinner last nite was not bad, though I had it alone in my hall room. Dum Chicken Briyani from JP's pratawala. It's really quite good! And also normal bubble tea from sweettalk. Just me, my lappie and dinner. Simple.
The night before, I had dinner with a few others at Clementi and had koiiiiiiiiii. The koi at Clementi sucksssssss. Seriously. it's not even nice. i wonder why the queue is so long! -.- The Toa Payoh one is much nicer can?? And anw, I thank God that I got a car lift back to hall by a new friend I met on the day itself. I just love car rides! :)
Talking about cars, I'm currently learning driving now. Love driving!! But yesterday's lesson really sucked. Maybe I'm just dumb?? I dont know. I kinda 'unlearned' all that i have learnt in my previous few lessons. The engine kept dying, my perception of turning was kinda skewed, i kept stepping on the wrong stuff, or turn the gear to the wrong one. Seriously, what's wrong with me man. I could do all those nicely before yesterday! And cos I was so screwed yesterday, my instructor didnt even allow me to drive back from LCK to Gombak, when I could do so the previous lesson. So demoralising! I feel so lousy about it la! :(:(:(
SIGHSSSSSS.
I AM HUNGRY AND STRESSED AND EXHAUSTED AND IRRITATED (by the noisy girl beside me in the library, who doesnt seem to get it that she is darn noisy. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.).
And my groupmates didnt even inform me that there is a group meeting until I asked them whether there was any meeting just now. Then one asked, "Who's supposed to tell her ah? HORHOR." WTH?! Actually, why should I even go for the meeting? Why should I? I wasnt even informed beforehand la.
I'm angsty and highly irritable.
Never gonna be part of anything and anywhere.
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| It's The Deadlines That Never End. |
[Nov. 1st, 2010|12:41 pm] |
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Seeing both sides, reading both stories, just gets me even more bewildered. Irritating the shitz out of me. Woots.
And thank God for really really nice and understanding groupmates! <3 them.
Now, back to work. |
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| Personal Ramblings. |
[Nov. 1st, 2010|01:15 am] |
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I have no idea why, but I really hate the feeling of kinda having an inkling about stuff but totally have no idea about it. Maybe i'm nosey, maybe i'm concerned, maybe i just wanna know how i can help. I just hate it when ppl are facing some issues and i'm clueless, especially if you treat them as good friends. I guess i just am not really part of it, I feel that invisible yet 'feel-able" line drawn. Maybe i just dont come across as a trustworthy enough friend, i dont know.
Yayy. I dont belong anywhere anyway. And sometimes i really wonder why i care and bother so much. What for? It'll just end up in myself feeling sucky. Sighs. Just can't help it but to care.
And it really doesnt help that i'm just so freaking exhausted, stressed and facing this stupid crunch time. I feel so much like screaming. Sighs.
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On a more positive note, i thank You Lord for always being there for me, at least i have one trusty and ever-loyal Friend. What a friend we have in Jesus! :) |
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| arghh. |
[Oct. 9th, 2010|02:10 pm] |
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i wonder what's wrong with me. i'm not thinking and feeling straight. no, i really dont want this to happen again. i needa get a grip. i dont like this feeling at all. curb all these, girl. stop it. always easier said than done, isnt it? :(
Lord, i need You. |
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